About 5 years ago I was living in Italy with my yoga
teachers. It was a huge time of
personal transformation for me on many levels (living the yogic lifestyle,
getting comfortable with myself as I am etc). The transformation I want to talk about today is my
relationship to miracles and faith.
I love the Yogi Bhajan quote “I don’t believe in miracles, I rely on
them.” It takes a HUGE amount of faith in the Universe to trust that the
miracle you need will manifest in your life at the right moment. And that was something that while I
always wanted to believe… in my
deepest places….I didn’t.
While I was living in Italy my older sister called with the
exciting news that she was pregnant with her second child. I wasn’t at all surprised by this as I
had had an intuitive insight before I left that she would be having a little
girl soon. We were all excited to
hear that a new soul had chosen us to be her family. A few weeks later my sister got the results of a test, which
indicated the baby may have a serious developmental condition that would effect
her ability to grow and develop in a “normal” way. This was, of course, very unsettling news.
When I heard this news I knew right away what I needed to
do. I started chanting 11 repetitions
of the Dhan Dhan Ram Das Guru Mantra every day. I’ve heard people say that this mantra will make miracles
happen. After all it is a mantra
in celebration of Guru Ram Das, the Lord of Miracles, and I felt like we needed
the miracle of a healthy baby. The
first few days I chanted I was really hoping it would help….but felt it my
heart that it was a lost cause. By
the 20th day (or so) I noticed that while I was chanting I really (really!) felt that this baby would be
totally healthy. But at other times
of day the fear or anxiety of the thought of the challenges this soul may face
reared their ugly heads.
Finally, by the 40th day I realized I had
completely dropped my fears. I had
connected during the meditation to the new soul and I knew, absolutely, that
she would be perfect. That she
would come into our family and bring joy and that she would live out her
destiny exactly as it was written.
And that, in and of itself, felt like a miracle. That I was able to drop my fear and
feel peaceful felt miraculous to me regardless of the health of this child. But
Guru Ram Das wasn’t done…
Flash forward to a few months later: I watched as my beautiful, perfectly
healthy niece came into this world.
She has no signs of developmental disability and in fact is incredibly
smart (This week in school she’s learning about words that rhyme…so she often
comes home chanting things like “Lama, Mama. Rhymes!”).
While I don’t lay any claim to creating the miracle of a healthy kid…I
do feel that I connected to Guru Ram
Das in a very meaningful and personal way during this experience. I feel the miraculous love of the
Universe more and more each day.
And while I still, sometimes, have trouble truly believing that my
miracle will come true…. I find it easier now to remember that my prayers have
been answered and to rely on God, Guru and/or the Universe to keep answering
them. Sat Nam.
